So, first things first, I got kicked out of my house tonight. Long story short, my dad believes that I’m acting too much like a child, I don’t have any problems and I’m a bad influence on my little brother WHO I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT GOOD THINGS FOR I TEEATED HIM WITH LOVE AND RESPECT AND LOVE AND I HELPED HIM WHEN HE WAS DOWN AND ALL I GOT FROM THAT LITTLE BASTARD WAS CONTEMPT BUT I KEPT TRYING GOD DAMMIT okay so I go to work because I have great work ethic and i cry all the way there but i calm down before i get inside - but my stores owner was there and damn is he intuitive because he could tell right away something was up because he asked to talk and I cried again and told him everything. Okay, so I finally calm down, clock in and thankfully today is the day my boss decides to be a sweetheart because he gave me jobs away from customers all day and my coworkers were all very well behaved so I didn’t break down at work and then he gave me a free pizza. Thankfully, my Nanny saw this coming and is lettiing me stay with her. Okay, so I get off work, I’m freaking out and shaking and driving to my nanny’s house and I run out of cigarettes. I stop and a QT by her house, buy my cigarettes, go back to my car AND IT WON’T FUCKING START SO I’M FUCKING ON THE VERGE OF TEARS SO I CALL NAN TO SEE IF I CAN GET A JUMP BUT GUESS FUCKING WHAT HER CAR IS ELECTRIC AND SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW IF SHE CAN JUMP WITH MY CAR so I go inside and ask for a jump from anyone, because there wasn’t anyone outside and HOLY SHIT SOME SUPER NICE DUDE SAID YES but holy shit it doesn’t help because either my battery is sooooo dead OR my fucking alternator is busted OR SOME FUCKED UP SHIT AND GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT FUCKING TWO DAYS THAT I HAVE AN OUTSTANDING BALANCE FOR SCHOOL FROM THE LAST TWO SEMESTERS OF FUCKING EIGHT THOUSAND DOLLARS AND I HAVE TO PAY TWO HUNDRED AN MONTH EVERY MONTH ON THE FIRST STARTING SEPTEMBER but I can’t pay that AND my cell phone bill AND possibly pay for my alternator and I just so fucking hate everything right now like what did I do to deserve this shit? What did I do in a past life or as a iid that would warrant THIS FUCKING SHIT HOLE THAT I’M STUCK IN.
Sorry if I just ranted your ears off, if you read that whole thing I’m impressed because god damn is it depressing. Anyway, I’m at my Nanny’s now, I grabbed some clothes before I left my house, along with my laptop, tablet, sketchbook and a whole bunch of chargers. Im super stressed and I want to cry but I’m glad I’m in a house full of people who care about me at the moment.